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Title Gaypulse, Vol. 1, No. 11, August 1988
Contributor
  • Renteria, Belinda
Publisher Pulse Publishing
Date August 1988
Language English
Subject
  • LGBTQ community
  • LGBTQ people
Place
  • El Paso, Texas
Genre
  • newspapers
Type
  • Text
Identifier OCLC: 780110663
Collection
  • University of Houston Libraries Special Collections
  • LGBT Research Collection
  • Gulf Coast Archive and Museum (GCAM) Digital Archive
Rights No Copyright - United States
Note This item was digitized from materials loaned by the Gulf Coast Archive and Museum (GCAM).
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Title File 003
Transcript OUR HISTORY (CONT] Individual panels. Whether or not people were looking for particular names, there was a kind of reverent compulsion to pause in tribute before each panel. One needed time to study Its design, to puzzle out what it meant for Individual lives, to relate to the loving care of those who commemorate and celebrate In this way the life of some person worthy of love and remembrance. A Donelan cartoon on one of the NAMES Project postered shows a gay man making a panel on his sewing machine, while another gay face with angel's wings whispers over his shoulder "And sequins...lots of sequins." There were Indeed lots of sequins, lots of denim, lots of creel work, lots of color and life. There were chefs caps and teddy bears, college Insignia and photographs, rainbows ana stars. One man is commemorated. God bless him. with a swirling green taffeta ball gown and a pair of black pumps. One panel reads "She Died in Prison; We Cannot Say Her Name." There Is one "For My Brother." whose parents will not permit even his first name to be used. Boston AIDS Action created a striking panel showing a map of the state inscribed "We Will Remember Your Names." I thought 1 could handle it. I knew only a few of those commemorated; I'd gone to their memorial services (plus a few others); I'd done my grieving. Or so I thought. Until I came to the panel for a Deautiful. talented man I'd known who died on Memorial Day, 1987, at age thirty, two weeks after being diagnosed. Then it hit me like running into a brick wall, or like the sharp chest pain the Boston Marathon runner encounters on "Heartbreak Hill." NATIONAL AIDS NETWORK SKILLS BUILDING October 20-23.1988 Hotel Inter-Continental New Orleans New Orleans, Louisiana For more information or to receive a Skills Building Conference registration package, write to: The National AIDS Network 1012 14th Street, N.W. Suite 601, Washington, DC 20005, Attn: Skills Conference Your New Friends on the Block Blue Goose 919 E. Paisano at St. Vrain (Block east of the OP) open Wednesday - Sunday 5pm - 2am Now You Have a Choice The organizers seemed to be everywhere at all times, and I cannot fathom how they did It. We volunteers, who mosUy worked four or five hours at a stretch, were on enough of an emotional roller- coaster as It was. But we found we could put our own feelings aside most of the time as we helped someone find a particular panel, or talked quietly about the NAMES Project and what it meant with someone waiting In theline. I did much of my private grieving in the depths of the night, waking up aroung three A.M.. thinking about what I'd seen on the previous day's stint, wondering where I was going to get the strength for the next one. Or dampening my pillow with healing tears over the beauty and love emenatlng from the quilt itself; or with tears of rage and frustration; or some nameless deep sorrow which comes when a human situation Is unbearable, yet has to be borne. During the last five hours of the exhibit, on Sunday afternoon, I roamed the floor of the Plaza Castle, walkie-talkie In hand, as the "quilt captain" for half the display. My Job was to encourage, support, and relieve the wonderful, caring women and men who carried one of the roughest emotional burden, monitoring a quilt section. I frequently Joined them in handing out paper tissues and supportive hugs to those overcome witn grief. Most of us volunteers had never met before, but we worked together in love, knowing that this experience would both teach us and transform us. The quilt Is not going to cure AIDS or end discrimination or change .the world; we have to do that ourselves. But It Is the single most effective educational device toward humanizing the effect of the epidemic that I have so far seen. In its very awesomeness. its beauty, and the collective human investment It represents. It teaches us a variant of Cajnus' famous dictum. That is. the task for our day, and through the sad times to come, is to love and to create. In the very midst of the desert. For what I learned as a NAMES Project volunteer is that love can overcome even the sharpness of death, can successfully challenge death's dominion. The quilt teaches that love is ultimately stronger than death itself, and we have to hold onto that. Through this experience also I have been enabled to enter more deeply into the pain of younger gay men In their twenties and thirties, who have buried more of their friends in the last few years tha their grandmothers have, who fear their own risks, who have lived more closely with IADS than I ever will. The quilt experience has strengthened my belief that we never really lose those whom we have loved, that they are in some sense still there for us. Through the NAMES Project we not only come to know their names, but in some sense we are all able to be there for them still. At seven P.M. on Sunday night, as those of us still In the building Joined hands around the quilt and observed a moment of reverent silence, we knew that we had to keep being there for them, and for all those living with AIDS, and for each other. The reporter had the sequence wrong. First you write your story. Then you cry your eyes out. Gay pulse PUBLISHER EDITOR-IN-CHIEF Belinda Renteria ASSOCIATE EDITOR Curtis Bryant Crawford CONTRIBUTORS Rose Qulntana Steve Warren ADVERTISING Advertising space should be reserved by the 10th ofthe month prior to publication. Ad copy Is due by the 15th. Advertising rates and data are available by calling 915/833-1878 SUBSCRIPTIONS $10 for 12 issues. Send check or money order with name. address, city, state and ZIP code lo: Gaypulse Subscriptions P.O. Box 13280 El Paso. TX 79913 GAYPULSE is published monthly by PULSE PUBLISHING al El Paso. Publication of the name, photograph, or advertisement, of any person or or ganization in articles or advertising in GAYPULSE is not necessarily an indication ol sexual onentalion or endorsement ol GAYPULSE and its readers. Opinions expressed by writers are riot necessarily those of the publisher. We reserve the right to edit or reject all material and it becomes the property ot GAYPULSE Anonymous letters or statements will not be published. Names will he withheld, if requested. All copy, text display, photo8 and lllus- trations in advertisements are published with the understanding that the advertiser is fully authorized and has secured proper written consent for the use of names, pictures, o' testimonials of any living person, and GAYPULSE may lawfully publish, and the advertiser agrees by submitting said ads to indemnify and save Wameles; the publisher from any liability, loss, or expense ol any nature arising out of such publication or any error ,tiar may be contained in said ad GAYPULSE does not accept responsibility for any claims made by advertisers The.entire contents of each issue of GAYPULSE are protected under the Federal Copyright Act, and may not be reproduced without express written permission ©1987 Printed in the USA. Member: Gay & Usblan Press Association GAYPULSE / August 1988
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