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Houston Voice, August 27, 2004 - File 011. 2004-08-27. University of Houston Libraries. University of Houston Digital Library. Web. December 16, 2017. http://digital.lib.uh.edu/collection/montrose/item/1919/show/1900.

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Title Houston Voice, August 27, 2004
Contributor
  • Crain, Chris
  • Fisher, Binnie
Publisher Window Media
Date August 27, 2004
Language English
Subject
  • LGBTQ community
  • LGBTQ people
  • Gay liberation movement
Place
  • Houston, Texas
Genre
  • newspapers
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  • Text
Identifier OCLC: 31485329
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Transcript IiMIUMiII voice EDITORIAL & PRODUCTION Executive Wtor CHRIS CRAIN E«or BINNIE FISHER Corresporetolts BRYAN ANDERTON, ADRIAN BRUNE. LOU CHIBBARO, JR., JOE CREA. MUBARAK DAHIR. LAURA DOUGLAS-BROWN, MIKE FLEMING. MATTHEW HENNIE, PHIL LAPADULA. RYAN LEE. BRIAN MOYLAN, KEVIN NAFF, KEN SAIN, RHONDA SMITH. CHRISTOPHER SEELY. STEVE WEINSTEIN, ANDYZEFFERCYDZEIGLER Contributors JOHNNY HOOKS. JOSEF MOLNAR, JASON VICTOR SERINUS, MUBARAK DAHIR, JA CHAPMAN. AND ARJAN TIMMERMANS PlBtographers DALTON DEHART. KIMBERLY THOMPSON Production Manager JENMABE r ARAMVARTIAN SAlfS & ADMINISTRATION General Manager JASON WILSON jwilson a. houstonvoice.com Account Executives DAVID TRUONG - dtnwngidtK)ustonvoice.com Classified Sales/ rjffice Administrator JOHNNY HOOKS - jhooksiahoustonvoice.eom National Advertising Representative Rivendell Media • 212-242-6863 A vrmdow<Me<ti j. Publisher- WINDOW MEDIA LLC President- WILLIAM WAYBOURN Editorial Director- CHRIS CRAIN Corporate Controller- BARNETTE HOLSTON Art Director- ROB BOEGER Director of Operations- MIKE KITCHENS Director of Sales- STEVEN GUERRINI Director of Classified Sales NATHAN REGAN Chief Financial Officer PAM AYRES Marketing Manager - RON R0MANSK1 iheChamber CHARTER MEMBER Established 1974 as the Montrose Star. 500 Lovett Blvd. Suite 200 Houston, Texas 77006 (713) 529-8490 Fax (713) 529-9531 www.houstonvttce.com Contents copyright 2004 Office hours: 9 am. to 5:30 pm. weekdays To submit a letter Letters should be fewer than 400 words. We reserve the right to edit for content and length. We will withhold names upon request but you must include your name and phone number for verification. Please send mail to Houston voice, 500 Lovett Blvd. Suite 200, Houston. Texas 77006; fax (715) 529-9531 or e-mail to edrtcrd-hcustr^wicecom. Opinions expressed therein do not reflect those of the Houston Voice. Al [Tutorial in Houston Voice is protected by federal ;upy"qtiT tM .-aid tuv Mt tie 'ppfotfuced mhoul fa avrit'pn consent :f Kuustoi Vatif The loinl wk '■' mW .if ahertiserc. -jMographers. writers and cartoonists puWisned herein Is nerthet inferred or implied. The appearance of names or pictorial representation does not necessarily indicate the se»ual orientation ot that person or persons. Houston Voce accepts unsolicited editorial material but cannot take responsibility for its return The edrtor reserves the right to accept, reject or edit any submission. All ngnt. revert to authors Won puUicjtion. Guidelines for freelance iMMn m MabUi -mi ,■.-;■,.-■,• Forum HOUSTON VOICE AUGUST 27, 2004 PAGE 10 editorial The crystal did us in' At first, the crystal, and all the pig sex that came with it, was euphoric. But when Tim woke to his lover and a room of strangers, he knew things were out of control. By MUBARAK DAHIR IM ADMITS THAT, AT FIRST, the crystal was euphoric. "I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy it," he concedes. In the beginning, the drug seemed transformational. Tim, who asked that his and his lover's names be changed, had always been a little "uptight" about sex. "I always held back," he explains. "Crystal made it seem OK to be a sex pig." Unlike many men who use the drug, Tim never had problems with an erection while doing crystal. "That made me extremely popular at the sex parties," he says. It also seemed to give him an "in" with the A-list crowd. As a gay man living in one of the gayest places in America, that was something he had always craved. "All these beautiful men who never showed me anything but attitude were now hanging around," Tim recalls. "I felt like I'd 'made it.'" The first time Tim did crystal, he didn't even know what it was. His lover, Pat, put the powder on a plate, cut it into lines with a credit card, and rolled up a dollar bill. Before Tim knew it, he was snorting. "I was doing it with my partner. We were doing it together," says Tim now. "He seemed to know what he was doing. I trusted him, and so I thought it was OK." WITHIN A FEW MONTHS, TIM AND Pat went from using crystal sporadically, to using it on a regular basis. As soon as Pat got off work on Friday, he'd score some Tina. He'd get on the computer and start looking for other men to invite over for sex parties. But when they were doing crystal, Tim and Pat could never get enough sex. After the first trick left, they'd be back online, encouraging more men to come over, enticing them with crystal and unbridled sex. It wasn't long before Tim and Pat's entire weekends were dedicated to partying and screwing. "There was a little voice in the back of my head that was screaming, 'Danger!' But it was so scary, I felt like we were in so deep, I didn't know how to turn back," Tim says now. "So I'd take a bump to silence the voices." Still, Tim did worry. Tim was suspicious that Pat was doing crystal during the week. Pat, once a built, stocky man at 6-foot-2 and 260 pounds, had lost 75 pounds. "He told everyone he was doing the Atkin's diet," Tim says. AFTER A YEAR OF THIS, TIM TRIED TO talk to Pat. But Pat turned belligerent. Whenever Tim expressed doubts about what crystal might be doing to their lives. Pat would threaten to leave. Tim wanted desperately to salvage the decade of love he had shared with Pat. At least if they were doing crystal together, he continued to think, they could watch out for each other. But then one Sunday morning, Tim got out of bed to find half a dozen strangers lying around naked in the living room. Pat was seated on the sofa, with a guy on either side of him. Everyone was "tweaked out of their minds," says Tim. "They were all sitting around watching a porno movie, trying to masturbate," Tim recalls. "But none of them really could, because they were all flaccid. They weren't even touching each other, and they all had these blank stares on their faces," Tim recounts. "I realized how pathetic we had become." TIM STILL THOUGHT HE COULD SAVE his lover and his relationship. But Pat wouldn't talk about it. Any time Tim tried to raise the subject, Pat would get moody and angry Tim began noticing, too, just how much money was disappearing. Pat would often make $300 withdrawals, sometimes twice a day. When Tim confronted him, Pat would simply brush it off as a "business expense" for work. But it wasn't long before Pat, who had earned a solid six-Figure salary, lost his job. Pat did land a second job, but soon started missing appointments and meetings with clients. Tim was now convinced that crystal was wrecking their lives. He pleaded with Pat to go with him to get professional help. He tried begging, crying, screaming, threatening, cajoling, promising. But Pat wouldn't, or couldn't, stop using. THEN PAT GOT SICK. FOR TEN DAYS, Pat was in bed, sweating and soiling the sheets. His body became covered in spots from second stage syphilis. Both Tim and Pat got scared. They went and got tested. They both had syphilis. And Pat's HIV test came back positive. It was hard news, bad news, but Tim thought that maybe it would somehow be a turning point for them. He hoped it would shock Pat into realizing how out of control the crystal had become, how it was destroying their lives. Tim still loved Pat. He could deal with the HIV "I thought maybe, in a weird way, this would save him and our relationship." But Pat looked at it differently. "I've already got HIV, so now I can do anything I want," Pat told Tim. FOR SEVERAL MORE MONTHS, TIM still tried to hang on, to win back from the crystal the man he had once loved. Then one weekend, Pat disappeared for three days, without a word. Later, Tim would find out he had gone on a crystal and sex binge. "I didn't know if he was dead or alive," Tim says. But Tim knew what he had to do. After two years of struggling with the devastation of crystal, Tim left both Pat and the drug that had consumed him. Tim has since found out from other friends that Pat is now "slamming": injecting crystal into his arms. Tim is still saddened by what happened. "We had survived so many other things in our relationship: job losses and parents dying and affairs with other men. But this one was too big. The crystal did us in." Mubarak Dahir is editor of the Express Gay News and can be reached at maah»l5>express- gaynewsxom
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