'I am a Rather Soliraiy
here's one of my drawing-poems for
you—hope you can use it!* i read your
last issue—on community--which, by the
way, i thought was very interesting--i
think PBT is "improving"! i hope to
see lots of response to the next issue!!
i have been in touch with the women who
give us "womanspirit"—-in fact, i did
the front cover—it's a beautiful
blue!--of this spring equinox issue!
also i've had some illustrations published
in "Women: a journal of liberation"
i really enjoy doing "work" like this
(actually, it's more like a true vocation—
my work is seamless with my pleasure...
ideally!) i am a rather solitary artist
in many ways—i would love to see a
space (a womanspace) here for art; a
feminist art community!...it's difficult
for me to verbalize intellectually what
my work is about—i hope that it is
"self-evident"...it is about the beyond
within, a reaching into the roots and
branches of my experience as a woman, for
me, these drawings are teachers, healing
sources...and they exist on many levels...
they are roadmaps, telling me of where i
have been, am, and have yet to go...they
are deeply personal, or they address to
the seer that part of ourselves which we
only intuit, dream...what i aim for is
this vital essence, the marrow of self...
the old phrase comes to mind, "the way
in is the way out is the way in"...to
infinity...!' want to touch the, what i
conceive of as--spiritual--in us—that
which to me transcends time, place...
what remains is the eternal energy source,
the one note of the song which continues
on...i paint and draw states of being,
inner landscapes (heartlands)...it is a
geography which we are beginning to explore... i generally prefer to draw, as
it's more immediate, my hand-—heart can
dance more freely...but i also like to
paint, i am currently sharing a studio
with another artist-—but am open to
sharing a studio (i'm poor, unfortunately)
space with a feminist artist...know of
anybody who might be interested in gathering together for a feminist art collective?
due to the fact that i am also employed
8-5 (yuck) and my evening hours spent
painting—i have little time to get
out and around, (maybe it's just me
being weird, but i got cold vibes from
ursula's...i find it difficult to project in a noisy group situation, don't
like to drink much, or play pool, much
to my chagrin!...but i have other pleasures!) but, the need is sincere and
felt way deep—to share and communicate
with friends...and i mean those who can
accept the many facets of me...i have
felt some rejection by the houston gay
community because i'm married, to a male,
horrors of horrors..., openly bisexual
(the "old having your cake and eat the
ice cream too" attack) and my cultural
tap-roots are in, dare i use such a
trite and well trodden phrase—"head"
society...even tho i'm acutely (chronic,
in that it's persistent!) poor, i believe in color!!** anyway, i've gotten
rude stares (mostly from women, curiously.)...but, such is the price for wearing your heart on your sleeves and jeans!
if you like the drawing, i hope you'll
get in touch, i'm open to communication!
do you have need of a "nonsalaried" artist—i'd be only too happy to contribute my dreams, hands, work if you would
have them...i have felt for a long time
that it would be a harmonious "mingling"
...(but haven't sent in before because
of procrastination—which is getting
cured!) i'd really like to learn about
doing a magazine—i don't know lay-out,
etc. and could enjoy discovering—even
the shit-work.* well..pi ease get a copy
of womanspirit—it's a good magazine...
high spirits, all! beyond the words and
lines, i hope our spirits melt together.,
p.s. alison, are you out there? hello to
you!! hope you are liking the country!!
if it feels good, get in touch!!
(letter cont. on page 5)
(* drawing on next page)